Little Pearl

Bryan and I found out we were finally pregnant 3 weeks ago. It was confirmed last Friday when we saw the heartbeat of Little Pearl. Obviously, this is going to be the story of Little Pearl. The name suddenly surfaced in my mind when I took the pregnancy test. It was based on our surname, Perlas. Perlas in English means pearl, thus the name Little Pearl. The funny thing is, when we saw the ultrasound, it resembled like an open shell, and there at the bottom was an itty bitty pumping gem. Bryan was suppose to take a photo but he was too mesmerized. He missed it! I wish I was able to take a photo of his candid moment. That look on his face was priceless. 

Since we got married in 2010, Bryan and I decided to have a baby when I arrive in the U.S. He didn't want me to get pregnant in the Philippines then leave me and the baby because he needed to work here. He wanted to be part of every milestone and I greatly honored that. When I arrived here last year, we just suddenly had a strong desire for a baby so we thought, this is it. Whenever we pray together, we do the usual routine. We ask the Lord to give us a healthy baby etc etc. Every month too, we ended up frustrated because my period arrives. Ooops, red light is on! No baby yet! The frustration piled up even more because of some people's comments like, "Ah, you're too slow!" "Isn't there any baby yet? Naiinip na kame." Ang hina niyo naman!". I know we don't have to entertain these comments but I'm sharing them here because they're off. These won't help the couple especially if they've been longing for a child. Bryan and I were in a fragile state at that time. So many lies entered our minds. We thought we were incapable. I even thought I was sick. And Bryan, one time, even cried! You know it's really true that the enemy (aka Satan) is the king of lies. He attacked us during the time we were vulnerable that's why it's very, very important to always wear the full armor of God. 

Paul said: 
Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore, put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. - Ephesians 6:10-13

Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. - Ephesians 6:17

The helmet of salvation! I realized that the moment Bryan and I had this strong desire in our hearts for a baby, the baby was already given to us! We're going to become parents. It's part of God's plan for us. From that day on, we stopped praying for a baby. We stopped praying and started praising God for the baby. By praising, our words changed. Instead of saying, "Lord, please give us a child!", our words became "Lord, thank you so much for our child." When I started praising God, my anxieties and frustrations went away. It gave me joy that I stopped trusting myself and started trusting God. During that time also, I was reading the book of Genesis where I encountered once again the love stories of Abraham and Sarah, Isaac and Rebekah and Jacob and Rachel. They had one thing in common, all of them were given children at their old age. Sarah for one had Isaac at the age of 90. I was crying while reading this story because God was telling me that if she made Sarah pregnant at the age past her fertility, then what can He not do? 

The very first faith goal that I wrote this year was about the baby and true enough, I missed my period last month. I've been recording my cycle for the past years. I have a regular cycle so I know the dates when I am expecting my period. But last month was a bit different. I had episodes of cramping that are funny and uncomfortable because the cramps made me wake up at night. My breasts seemed swollen too and I'm always tired. I cannot even complete a 30-minute Turbo Fire workout. Bryan kept on telling me that time, "I think you're pregnant already! There's something different about you." I was expecting my period on the 28th of January. No period. January 29, no red light again. January 30, no red light. Until the last day of the month, Bryan and I went to 99cents store to buy some paper plates. Bryan was already at the cashier when I spotted a cheap pregnancy test. I ran toward that aisle, got one just in time for Bry's payment turn. 

I rushed to the rest room as soon as we arrived home and my, that was the longest 2 minutes of my life! Finally, 2 red lines were staring back at me (then I tried 3 more pregnancy tests from other brands). Bryan jumped for joy when I showed him the result. He was teary eyed. I immediately scheduled a doctor's appointment but we should wait until I'm about 6-8 weeks so that explains my first prenatal appointment last Friday. 


The long wait was so worth it! This was what I was singing that whole day.


Father, you are the greatest! Thank you so much for this blessing! Little Pearl was conceived out of love, out of faith, out of hope. 

Ethel

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  1. thank you for sharing your beautiful story. I am glad that another person has reawaken one's faith. it is true that when we encounter storms in our lives, we tend to become vulnerable as it will test our character. As we seek our Creator, we become stronger, and He always know what's best for us.

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